Too Many Times

by Kevin Sinclair

Too many times I have been thinking
Too many times without reflection
Don’t know where I am meant to go
Lost in the loneliness of this moment
Looking for love but never letting any show
How come the days are so long
The nights are dark and stormy
Want a warm hand to hold tonight
Someone to make me feel alright
And to shield me from this cold.

Too many times I have been walking
Looking around but never talking
Failing to see the beauty around me
The trees may be in bloom today
But I can’t smell the blossom so sweet
My mind is lost in it’s own world
Trying to make sense of this life
Want a happy heart to guide me
An attentive ear to listen to me
To accept my heart of stone.

Too many times I have said no
When I really meant to say yes
Don’t know which way to go
Looking but never seeing what I have
Doubts about what I can give
You know me so well you think
But there is also so much you don’t
I never share the deep inner me
Don’t want to ever set it free
Who knows what would happen to my world.

Too many times I have been disappointed
More often than not with myself
Failed to live up to the standards I’ve set
And couldn’t even try to forgive myself
A weary soul drags me down deeper
Into more and more of the pain
Sometimes I have to wonder
Am I really going insane
I need you there to watch over me
Your kiss may set me free.

Too many times I have been writing
Poetry so sad and blue
Isn’t there more to my life
That I could share with you
Can I look for some joyous times
When my heart was warm and giving
When each moment just flowed on by
And life really felt like living
If you reach out your hand to me today
I’ll take it instead of just walking away.

Copyright ©1998 KG Sinclair. All rights reserved.